Last Letter

im spent. pretty weird trying to conversate through a blog. but, i know i have to do this. im spent. im at my end. i know ive done too many stupid things in the past. but, this time ive outdone myself. i flattered myself too much, thought too highly of myself. but now, i really do get it. now i know that all you can really think of me is as a friend. and by now, its already fine. ive grown numb to that fact.

but, i cant stand to be this way anymore. i need to walk away. because today ive broken my already broken self because of thinking too highly. thinking i was that person. and i cant afford to feel this way. not in this part of my life. im now officially walking away. dont get me wrong. im not blaming you for anything because it was i who made the mistake. you were never to blame for all of this. youve always asked for friendship, and ive always asked for more. that was my mistake.

now, i want to ask you a favor. please help me in this ok? help me walk away. and the only way you can help me is not to contact me anymore. i know you can try that. its just a little thing. i dont want any text messages from now on. even those silly little quotes you always do send. because every time i read your name in my phone, it makes me think of some things that i hope would happen but never will. it makes me hope. it makes me think too highly of myself. and thats whats allowing all this to happen. no, once again im not blaming you for anything. because a friend has the right to contact another friend, right? but, please, help me get rid of that temptation, to hope, to think too highly. its easy. i know it is.

but theres one thing i would like you to remember though. that i would always care for you. id always cherish those memories even though the value that each of us give to those memories are a bit different. i really do am hoping that we will live a happy life. one that both of us can be satisfied of. but in order for us to do that we must really do live our lives. i know that youre already doing that in your own way. and i would also start from now on. i hope everything in your life will turn out for the best. i sincerely do hope for that. and i also hope the same goes for my life as well.

im officialy walking away. end of this blog site. :)