Whoa. Blogging again after a very long time. Its been a year and nothing much has happened. Finally, I graduated last October. We finished our thesis and passed the defense. Experienced Christmas without thinking of any academic things. Learned to drive. Got a driver's license. Got a car. Went to Manila to find work. Failed in the attempt. Met with some long lost family members in Manila. Experienced some fun and wicked stuff there. All in all, it was fun and had a blast. Now, here in Davao. Feeling like a bum because I am a bum. Trying to find work here but no sense of purpose just yet. Need to feel pressured but feeling just specks of it not the full thing. Got the nagging feeling that I will turn out to be a nobody.
Feeling that my mind has become mush. Forgot some programming concepts. Wanting to learn again because I really do love programming. I'm made for it even though no company's biting just yet. Thinking of doing other things for the mean time. Like writing or business. Got a programming project but I still don't have the guts to tackle it. Maybe that's just the problem. Having no guts. I need to become more aggressive about all this. If I need to make a name for myself I need to make something out of this nothing I'm having right now. But, once again I'm thinking that my mind has melted. I'm always thinking of the wrong things. I don't seem to get into the mood about anything. I'm always pushing things for tomorrow even though I know that I can do those stuff today. It's one big cliche rolled into one. I'm stuck and I know it and I'm not swimming away. I'm not moving. Everyone's moving past me. And I'm not caring.
Need to get my act straight. My life is in slow mo right now. Even though its moving way too fast. I need to get out of this hell hole and I need to act now.
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